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HAPPY FRIDAY

Man, what a week. There’s been so many signs telling me to make some changes in my life. And I think it’s caused me to be an emotional wreck. Though, there’s been some good layers that needed “peeling.”

I’m fearful. Confused. Stressed. Why? I guess we always want a guarantee on our decisions. That if we make a mistake things will be quickly fixed. And when the fixes aren’t quick, then we second guess or it’s not how we thought things were going to go. But that’s not life is it?! Life is FULL of complications. Full of change. Change that you don’t want. Full on up and down. But going through these changes and how we build our character and how we learn, that’s what defines ourselves isn’t it.

So, what do I have to lose? That’s what I keep telling myself. A LOT. If I continue to keep things the same. One of my biggest fears already happened. That Tim’s life was taken too young. Sooo… how bad can the rest of my fears of change be?

But what I read and learned this week has been powerful. That I have to let go and just trust in HIM. That if I listen to all these signs that God and the universe have been sprinkling, and give it my full heart, that’s what God is guiding me towards. To let go of those fears that the other bad guys wants— the misconceptions, the fears, the evil— that’s trying to interrupt and sidetrack what God and my heart wants. And it’s all gonna work out. It always does.

Cuz living ain’t living when you’re full of all these fears controlling your life. So here’s to having a fun, fearless weekend! Love and blessings.

The photo above is from my great walk this morning with Oliver, my lil sunshine.

 

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LET’S DO THIS THING

This is an eclectic forum for me to share my favorite memories of Tim, heal my heart, and create fun things. This
blog is dedicated to Tim and keeping his legacy alive. He filled my life with so much love, laughter and tons of
adventure. We were together 8 years, and married for 4.5 years.

He was my whole heart. My whole life. But his love and zest for life definitely thrives within me. I am so lucky
and blessed for this. I can’t put into words how much I miss him, but I realize he is on “his own” adventure and
no longer suffering.

As I move forward, this is my journey for creating a new life for myself. I’m not “letting go,” just forging ahead.
That life is truly a gift, and to give it my fullest. To have fun. Really enjoy each day. And that my family and
friends, not objects or things, have and always will be my true happiness.

I hope this blog will inspire and empower you as well. Thank you for reading and sharing. God bless. ♥

The above photo was taken last year during Tim’s birthday weekend. He wanted to get out of town and escape.
Tim loved trees. After we settled into our hotel room, we both landed on the bed and just gazed at this view. We
were deep in thought. I don’t know what he was thinking. I prayed for comfort and peace. That Tim would be
free from health emergencies and avoid any health drama for this long weekend. Didn’t seem like a crazy wish,
but considering Tim’s recent history, that prayer was huge. It was a great weekend. A bit of casino slot
machines. Ordering room service. A nice view of trees. Spending quality time with my mate. And free from any
hospital equipment. I’m so blessed for that memory. This was our last real vacation together. I wonder if TIm’s
entrance to heaven looked like this. I hope it was like this or way better!

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