January is an interesting month for me and Tim.
8 months ago. Tim left my arms for heaven.
9 years ago (officially next month), I asked him out.
6 years ago this month, he proposed to me after a day of snowboarding.
3 years ago this month cancer began its toll on him.
The number 8 has become my lucky number because of him. We were together for 8 years, and it also looks like the infinity symbol. He will forever be my soul mate. My true love and best friend.
He taught me so much about myself and life.
I will always love him. And find solace and joy going through these memories.
Though sad as it is for him to not be with me physically to share, I take comfort that he cherishes those memories too. My heart grew when we met, and he’ll always remain deep in my heart.
I’m taking each day at a time. Surrounding myself with great love from family and friends, and relishing in the joy of life.
I’m trying to make him proud and smile also. Not a day goes by or moments in a day that I don’t think of him.
Here’s to not letting go, but to forging on.
I can’t change what happened 8 months ago or 3 years ago.
That every day is a gift from God.
I am blessed and thankful for all the memories (good memories and the ugly ones).
These memories I can learn from, grow from, and treasure in my heart daily.
This is an eclectic forum for me to share my favorite memories of Tim, heal my heart, and create fun things. This
blog is dedicated to Tim and keeping his legacy alive. He filled my life with so much love, laughter and tons of
adventure. We were together 8 years, and married for 4.5 years.
He was my whole heart. My whole life. But his love and zest for life definitely thrives within me. I am so lucky
and blessed for this. I can’t put into words how much I miss him, but I realize he is on “his own” adventure and
no longer suffering.
As I move forward, this is my journey for creating a new life for myself. I’m not “letting go,” just forging ahead.
That life is truly a gift, and to give it my fullest. To have fun. Really enjoy each day. And that my family and
friends, not objects or things, have and always will be my true happiness.
I hope this blog will inspire and empower you as well. Thank you for reading and sharing. God bless. ♥
The above photo was taken last year during Tim’s birthday weekend. He wanted to get out of town and escape.
Tim loved trees. After we settled into our hotel room, we both landed on the bed and just gazed at this view. We
were deep in thought. I don’t know what he was thinking. I prayed for comfort and peace. That Tim would be
free from health emergencies and avoid any health drama for this long weekend. Didn’t seem like a crazy wish,
but considering Tim’s recent history, that prayer was huge. It was a great weekend. A bit of casino slot
machines. Ordering room service. A nice view of trees. Spending quality time with my mate. And free from any
hospital equipment. I’m so blessed for that memory. This was our last real vacation together. I wonder if TIm’s
entrance to heaven looked like this. I hope it was like this or way better!