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2012 YEAR IN REVIEW

Julie Goldstein

This has been a big and profound year for me. The thick, intense “widow fog” has dissolved.

This year was about becoming more present and moving forward without Tim. You can’t avoid grief. You have to go through it.

It was full of emotional happy highs and lonely, deep lows. But I realized that I wasn’t completely “on my own.”  That my faith in God is true, and he’s been here with me this whole time. It was also a year filled with healing and transformation.

 

Here are 4 words that sum up my year:

01. Connection – Forming friendships with several strong, spiritual, and confident women that really helped me grow “on my own” and believe in myself. Fall, Hayley, Dana, Jill and Sorrel. You ladies have been my rock. I love you so much and I can’t tell you how much your soul sisterhood has meant to me.

02. Faith – I been more vocal about my beliefs. I’ve been wary of sharing my faith, but I’ve realized that I shouldn’t be fearful to share what it means to me, and the reason why I’m optimistic and curious for what the future holds. I believe in love and God gave me that love. He took my soul mate from my arms. But I don’t blame God. All I can do is have faith that there was a reason he needed Tim up in heaven. And that God is counting on me to recognize his purpose for my life. That I need to take responsibility for living and not dwelling on the sadness. The medium session I had in April was profound – getting messages from both Tim and God gave me clarity on my new journey. I highly recommend seeing a medium to help connect with your loved one.

03. Slowing down – Grief is very fatiguing. And I think in today’s world, we try to accomplish so many things with high expectations and its usually unfair and unrealistic. First of all, it doesn’t seem like there’s ever the time to grieve. We live in a non-stop, hurry-up, get-it done now, add it to my hotlist, firedrill-kind-of-world that expects microwave results. And how does one fit grief and healing into overloaded schedules? You can’t.

I didn’t realize how intense grief can be until the evenings and weekends, when things slowed down, and I was alone. With my thoughts. I’d shake and cry so hard, that I finally came to a crossroads. That I needed to take care of myself.

Quitting my job has allowed me the time to heal my heart, spend time with loved ones, have fun and organically play on my new creative path. Working “on my own” has been rewarding and overwhelming. I’ll share more in my next post.

04. Rediscovery- Allowing myself to do things I love. That make me happy. Things that I used to enjoy with Tim. Going to new restaurants. Dancing. Going to live music. Traveling. Laughing so hard it hurts. Shopping. Cooking. Helping others. Stepping away from the computer.

Here’s a look at some of my favorite memories of this year. These photos give me so much hope that 2013 will be even more fulfilling, fun, creative and filled with love. I will never stop missing Tim, but I believe he’s proud of what I’ve accomplished this year.

 

So, I do have some exciting things planned for 2013. And I will share more with you.

I also want to thank all of you for following and reading this blog. This has been therapy for me. This is my creative outlet. To share what’s on my mind. What inspires and empowers me. And what gives me hope and delight, as I recreate my life without Tim. My hope is that you will discover that you are worth it. That no matter what your circumstance is, that life really is worth living. That you are awesome. And beautiful. And have great shoes, too! (hah!)

So I thank you so much for visiting my lil quirky blog. You rock my world.

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BUSY LIL BEE

I’ve been busy as a bee doing an assortment of different things.

I helped my friends cater a TEDx bootcamp event, went to a movie all by myself (this was a goal of mine), and attended a “real marriage” conference (I’ll share why I went and what I learned).

I’m also in the process of scanning photos of my favorite Tim adventures and having fun with a new freelance project for a fashionista I met from ALT.

I’ve been wondering where the time has gone, but feeling so blessed for all this variety and discovery.

March is also Tim’s birthday month, so lots of great memories to be shared soon.

Also, I stumbled upon this fantastic designer/illustrator, Matthew Kavan Brooks. Love his stuff. Great quotes. And completely engaging typography and design. You can also see and buy more of his work here.

This one caught my eye immediately. As a widow, (or perhaps someone going through a loss, or maybe there’s some sort of rock in life’s path) the saying “just taking things day by day” is so true. Sometime’s life can be so challenging, sometime’s taking it minute by minute is the best one can have hope for. However, I think allowing ourselves to relish and enjoy that minute, that day, or that moment for all that’s possible, we can really enjoy and honor that hope and strength. We can’t stop time, but we can enjoy life slowly, minute by minute, if that’s what it takes. Until we get so busy living we forget how fast the time really flies.

love life

be present illustration

 

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ALT DESIGN SUMMIT 2012

alt design summit

A week ago I attended the Alt Design Summit in Salt Lake City with my pal Alison and had the best time. It was 3-day conference for lifestyle bloggers.

WHAT KIND OF BLOGGERS? Full on fashion-forward, smart gals who are crafting, designing, photographing, DIY-ing, interior styling, party planning, and just about anything you can do in life and want to blog about, were there.

Marketers and top peeps from HGTV, Sunset Magazine, Martha Stewart Magazine, Chronicle Books, Better Homes and Gardens and others were also there to network and connect up. It was a who’s who of the blogging and social networking world, with a twist of brightly colored leggings and hipster glasses.

Blogging pros and industry gurus, like the founder of Pinterest, were there to speak and give insight, resources and share funny stories of what didn’t work.

I heard about Alt back in November from Oh Happy Day. My goal for going was to amp up my social networking savvy with this blogosphere and gain inspiration.

{ BTW: goal achieved and then some! }

This conference isn’t really about “how to create a blog” more about pushing your blog to the next level. And connecting up.

Here’s my pics from the conference.

young widow inspiration

Wondering why we’re all wearing white? It was intentional.

At the first night’s party  ”Dinner En Blanc,” where everyone was asked to wear white. It was quite the winter wonderland scene. Tutus, sparkles, lace — everyone showed that white is no challenge. Was surprised at the variety of whiteness.

emily henderson

Hanging out with our new best friend,Emily Henderson of HGTV’s Secret From a Stylistand HGTV’s Design Star winner. She was super sweet. And has beautiful skin too.

I asked what she does to keep such an impeccable, beautiful face (besides being blessed with amazing genes), and she said she uses Armani foundation.

 Bri Emery

So excited to meet design and blog queen, Bri Emery of DesignLoveFest. When Tim was in the hospital, I’d check her blog out to escape the drama. She’s got a knack for adding a twist of fun or vibrancy to her photos. She’s definitely an inspiration for me and this blog.

I made friends from Toronto, Australia and places in between. I’m not doing this blog to make money. I’m trying to help myself get through this weird, sad, sunken chapter, and opening myself to new avenues of healing/happiness/creativity.

altitude design summit lootslc mountain

This conference gave me the confidence to forge ahead with this idea and I look forward to what interesting experience(s), people I met along the way, and the healing that comes forth. So stoked Alison joined me too, we are such goofballs together!

And thank you Alt, looking forward to seeing what 2013 has planned!

Anya project runway

Photo-op with Project Runway season 9 winner, Anya Ayoung Chee.

 

 

 

 

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